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c'est la vie. [06 Dec 11.11am] [ mood | happy ]

The smile falters too. [06 Nov 11.46am] [ mood | tired ] "You look at me and smile so bright but when I read what you write I see tears of sorrow." So what? So damn what?

Home run. [05 Nov 6.59pm] [ mood | cold ] Maybe it’s true what they say - there are some people you encounter in life whom you never really get over. No matter how many other better people you meet; people who treat you better and love you better, in the back of your mind there is always that one person whom you can’t quite completely forget. They say loving you is my biggest mistake, but how can it be so wrong if it feels so right? If I ever made a mistake, it's not that I love you, but it’s thinking that you loved me once. There's a difference between letting go and pretending you've forgotten.

Out loud. [05 Nov 8.48am] [ mood | sad ] You block certain emotions, certain feelings so you don't feel anything. Then a song or a memory triggers the thing you've been trying so hard to hide and avoid. And then every once in awhile reality hits hard. I sit and think about him and all I lost. That's when it gets harder to smile. Even when you grit your teeth and you look up and force yourself to smile. You become good at masking your feelings. So good sometimes you don't recognize the girl in the mirror. I miss the blue skies of the South. The rain seems so sad today. Or maybe it's just me whose feeling blue today.

Dreams of you. [04 Nov 3.15pm] [ mood | satisfied ] Nature has it's way of cheering you up.

3am. [03 Nov 3.00am] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | M.J- Man In The Mirror ] "Every girl has that one boy, that they’ll never get over. That one guy who makes you laugh all the time. The one who gives you butterflies just when someone mentions his name. That one who remembers all the stupid things you say and reminds you about it months from now. The one who has his name written all over your heart. The one whom you compare to everyone. The one you never get sick of talking or hearing about. The one you cry over and over about. The one everyone thinks you can do better than. The one you ask why her and not me. The one when you first saw him you knew you loved him. The one that in some way ends up not being yours."

Be brave. [01 Nov 11.23pm] [ mood | calm ] I've got to be brave I know. Even when it's hard sometimes. I'm glad he's happy now, even if he smiles for her. I'm thankful I'm still alive. I'm gonna stay alone for awhile and bask in this. I'm gonna walk on alone and wait for the tide to come in. Wait for the waves to settle.

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